I’m so excited to write this to you all I don’t know where to begin so I’ll begin at the beginning, which wasn’t that exciting. It was actually a little disappointing.
I arrived back in the room just after three and Janet was awake but looking a little uncomfortable. After a couple minutes I realized her feed pump was still running. I looked at the total delivered and quickly hit the off button. Instead of the prescribed 325ml of formula she was to get, Janet had 1,023ml pumped into her! I got her nurse (the LPN that started the feed) and she acted as if it was no big deal and started to give Janet the water she always gets after to flush the line. That’s another 120ml of fluid with no explanation for the overdose! I went and got Arlene and she reassured me that as long as Janet stayed a little elevated in bed for a half hour she’d be fine. She compared it to eating a massive turkey dinner. I was ok with that and told her I wasn’t too upset about the pump problem but was concerned that no one had checked on Janet from when I left at 12:15 to when I got back at three. She agreed that was not good and had Allison the nurse manager come and talk to me then Janet’s RN came in and said she had checked on Janet at two. I asked ” didn’t you notice the pump still running? No. Huh?
Ok so I guess that was kind of exciting just not in a good way. Janet was fine and by a little after four we were on our way to the beach. Janet was way more comfortable in the wheelchair this afternoon and seemed to really enjoy soaking up some rays. We managed to get close enough to the plum tree for Janet to pick one. She did so effortlessly and I thought she might try to eat it but she put it straight onto her lap and it stayed there the rest of our outing. Not that exciting but positive.
Back in the room I just had time to get Janet into bed and confirm with her nurse she was skipping dinner then I was off to Trinity for the 5:30 service. I’m so grateful to be able to attend such a loving and inspiring church. Wayne’s message was hard hitting, truthful and motivating, the worship team led by Storm was great. Allison, it is always an honor to hear you sing and Kiko your smile and love for God is as inspiring as your talent. The day so far had me feeling a little down as I’m facing some major decisions in the next while but to connect with friends and “family” at Trinity is a huge gift. Thanks y’all! That was exciting but there’s better yet.
After lingering at church dealing with a Twerp and knowing Kiko had gone to see Janet I arrived to find Kiko trying to wake Janet up. Lovingly of course. She did eventually open her eyes and had a little visit before I moved in for the bedtime stretch. I went pretty easy on her as she seemed pretty tired and after I got her gown and splint on for the night I knelt beside her and started saying goodnight. For some reason my emotions snuck up on me and I lost it. I put my head on her chest and through the watery blur I could see her smiling! She started patting my shoulder then rubbing my arm. Smiling all the time. I talked (whispered actually) to her trying to explain how much I love her and how well she is doing and how many people are helping her and praying for her. She kept smiling, raising her eye brows occasionally and blinking her eyes fast as if coming out of a fog. I had to leave a few times to blow my nose and each time I came back there was a new smile for me. These were whole face smiles too, not little mouth smiles, one even showed teeth. I kept expecting her to blurt out a word but smiles will have to do for now. It was incredibly hard to leave and I didn’t until almost nine. I believe she understood every word I said to her. I believe God is doing something amazing with her and I know our lives are never going to be what they were but I believe our lives will be amazing. That is exciting!
Praying for a restful and healing night and smile filled day tomorrow.